And I've fallen off the wagon

I'm not sure exactly why, but I have not been to BangBang in at least 2 weeks. Which is just plain bad for me. I don't even mean physically. Mentally, people. I need to see friends and stay active. I legitimately could not go a couple of times and then I've made excuses the last few times. And then every time I think I'll go back, something comes up. The next workout I could feasibly make (and let's not count 5am workouts) is Saturday at 9am. But now I'm going hiking, so that's out. So the next time I could go is Monday at 7:30. But I have a late doctor's appointment that will probably prevent me getting back home at a reasonable time. Maybe? Anyway, there's a part of me that knows I need to go back, but there's the other part that, for some reason, doesn't want to. I know I need to ignore that last part! I don't know why I can't just form a dang habit and stick with it!