So I started over last night. Well, to say "started over" is a bit dramatic, but it had been a while since I've worked out consistently. It was the beginning of September when I stopped going to CFBB. I moved near the end of September, and I had a lot to do to get ready for that, not to mention regular work hours and my classes at USC. But then once I moved, habits had to change. When you move, it can be exciting, but everything gets discombobulated! I had to get used to new routines, and going to CFBB got put on the back burner for a while. I meant to start back once I got settled in, but it took me much longer to get settled than I thought. I'm still not thoroughly convinced that I am settled! Anyway, about six weeks went by before I found myself back in the gym... and I was scared. Scared that I had lost any strength or ability and that I wouldn't be able to do the workout. I went twice that week. I did one workout with Daniel and another with Jess. Fortunately, all the coaches at CFBB are awesome -- that's one thing I never have to worry about! My workouts were pretty good, actually. Yeah, they were harder than usual, but they weren't too bad. But then I had a ton of school work to do and before I knew it, another couple of weeks went by. And another couple of weeks. Then Thanksgiving. Anyway, I finally decided to start back yesterday evening, and I have a goal of being consistent through the end of the year. I drove to the gym and found myself scared to go in! Surely, after so many weeks (really, over 2 months!), I would feel horrible working out. I forced myself to walk in -- I like to get there early and watch the Crossfitters work out before me. It kinda gets me pumped up a little. Daniel was there and he came over and talked to me for a while. That's one of the best things about CFBB. The coaches there really care about you and take the time to talk to you and see what's going on in your life. So, I talked to Daniel for several minutes about my difficulties in being away from the gym and deciding to come back. Steve came in to coach our class, which was wonderful, because Steve is also awesome. The workout wasn't too bad, actually.
The last part of it was pretty difficult, but not just for me. We had to row 500m, rest for 90 seconds, then row 500m more. This, of course, was better than the time we had to row 1000m straight. However, I think this was harder for me because I was in better shape rowing 1000m! Anyway, I got through it with some help from Steve, and I left the gym feeling good. I almost always feel way better after I work out. And, overall, it really helps my depression. So, I'm planning to go back tonight and tomorrow night in hopes that I can make this a habit (again). I really want to be a person who goes to the gym! Maybe that sounds silly, but I really love CFBB. The people there (coaches and athletes) are just top-notch. So, I want to be there, several times a week. I just have to make it a priority again!
